Second Opinion

Well, yesterday went pretty well. I didn't find the particular comic I was looking for but I ordered it offline anyway. I also found someone with almost the same music taste as me. Cool. Suck it -----!
Sorry...that was directed at a particular person. Anyway...ya. My new video games are super fun. Trauma Center is super fun. I like it more then the Wii one...although I'm tempted to get one of the two for the Wii. Digimon is cool. A little harder then the Digimon World DS, but that's okay. The Justice League one is just like X-Men Legends. I unlocked Kyle already. Kingdom Hearts is also pretty cool. Much better then the GBA version.
Anyway...ya. Wolf's gonna come over on Thursday. Sweet
-Sasha

Titles and Self Respect

So...hopefully I get to go comic book scouring today. Hopefully.
And maybe make a friend. Maybe.
No one else in my school, that I know of, likes American comics so...I'm glad to find someone else who actually knows Marvel from DC. That I know of.
So, here's to luck and fun and...possibly another let down. Possibly
-Sasha

Grains of Sand

Well...I haven't been posting because there has been nothing to post. And I had a super-headache that I believe was caused by screen-staring.
Well...Christmas is over. My family is weird. I don't have the same morals as them.
Anyway, I officially decided that Colossus from X-men is awesome! Although I already knew that. I got the third graphic novel from the Ultimate X-men series and he was a main character is part of it. I know he's totally out of my usual character range but...he's so cool. Seriously, how can one not like a 6'6" Russian who can stop an entire train by himself and bullets bounce off of? Anyway...ya. I really liked his story in the comic because I could...let's just say relate. Although I can't go hide in Russia.
-Sasha

Fear of Waking

Okay. I give up. Not really, but I want to. Stuff keeps happening and I keep saying "oh, no big deal". You can only think that so many times before it looses some of the meaning.

I guess I deal with things by brushing them off, but I'm out of room to brush stuff too. Am I really THAT different then everyone else? I mean, come on. Every single thing I like is "wrong" or "uncool" or "in bad taste". Why? Why me? What am I doing wrong? People say that they appreciate me for being me no matter what. Do they "appreciate" me just so they have someone to make fun of. Someone for them to be above?

What if it is a big deal? What if I, just maybe, like the things I like for a reason? What if I take insults to my interests as insults to me because I put my all into everything?

What makes all of us hate?
We're all the same
We roll the dice
And we play your game
We complicate
Show us the way
Before it's too late
And the whole thing breaks

We have a name
We all create
Everything else,
the mistakes we made
We'll make a change
We'll concentrate
Before we suffocate

Can't hold this in
And keep it quiet any longer
I've fallen in
And now this feeling's getting stronger

Take my breath away
Now I'm trying to get up
I'm trying to retrace
My steps back
To wherever I messed up
Is forever enough?

-Sasha

Twenty Five Dollars

Well, I got my first birthday present today. My aunt sent me two GameStop/EBGAMES giftcards worth twenty five dollars each. Woot!
My birthday isn't for another few days but...the cards were already poking out of the envelope so I opened it early.
I'm bored. I need to hang out with someone...I donno who though. I call someone tomorrow if NumbSkull doesn't come over...or something like that...
-Sasha

Incomplete

Well...it's the first day of my Christmas break. Have I done anything productive? Nope.
I'm going to go watch some Stargate so I can FINALLY get it off my DVR...nothing else really. I have one more Christmas present to buy...yep. Tis all.
-Sasha

Look Right Through Me

Anyway - ya, so, here's irony for you. I complain to get attention and to kinda get people to notice their own behavior, I know. Bad girl. Anyway, the one person who actually listens to said complaints is a person who doesn't need to change.
Wasn't that a lovely plan?
Anyway...I'm going to be bored over the break...I know it.
-Sasha

Of All The Things I Regret

Well...here's an epiphany...
Boy/girlfriends replace friends 99.9 % of the time
Really, they do
It's annoying. I can't say that I wouldn't do the same thing...no experience, but I don't think I will. Assuming I ever get a boyfriend.
I have abandonment issues and well...being abandoned doesn't help.
And neither does how certain people act. I know that they're my friends but I need them to act like it a little bit more.
My soapbox is done...for now
-Sasha

One in Ten Thousand

Ya...still on my Physics project. I REALLY hope it works...if not I am SO failing.
Not cool
Anyway - ya...no clue what to type. I don't think any one's even reading this...so ya.
Glue takes forever to dry. Especially wood glue
Please pray for me and this project
-Sasha

The only thing stopping me from killing is jail

Yet again I was planning on posting about how people don't mean half the stuff they say and how the word friend had lost it's meaning but right now different stuff is weighing on my mind.
Am I totally naive? I used to think I was a good student, a good friend and a half-way decent writer. Now...not so much. I've learned recently that junk has been going on right under my nose and I didn't even notice. Ya, great friend. Also I've been 1-uped at every opportunity writing wise by one of my classmates. And now...I feel like a total idiot. In fact, I am an idiot. I'm stuck on this Physics project...and I have no clue what to do. Everyone else got it already. What the heck am I missing? Am I really this stupid? I mean...how do you know how smart you really are? I thought I was...no anymore though. Can't I just do something right once?
-Sasha

Three Times Failing

Wow...I haven't forgotten about this. Anyway, here are some cool lyrics.

"Save You" by Simple Plan

"That if you fall
stumble down
I’ll pick you up off the ground
If you lose
Faith in you
I’ll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won’t give up
Cause I’ll be waiting if you fall
You know, I’ll be there for you"

I love this song...at least that section of the song
Now onto way too much homework
-Sasha

Distractions and the Lack Thereof

Dude, I am so hopeless. Seriously. On a much lighter topic then below...anyway. Well, I go from one thing to the next and then I get stuck. Why? Because I get into stuff that very few people care about, none the less even know about. Right now I'll all on Deaf people.
Don't ask how I got there...long story. Anyway, ya, moral of the day, not many movies have deaf characters since there are only so many deaf actors. It's annoying. In my opinion, at least. I really like this one guy but he's in like three movies and a TV show I can't find anywhere online. Not helpful. He's an amazing actor though.
That's all I have to say really. Odds are only one person is reading this so this is an amazingly worthless little sentence but whatever. If anyone knows how/is willing to try to roleplay with me letting me use a deaf character I will pay you, no joke!
-Sasha

So deep it didn't even bleed

Messed up. Seriously, messed up. I was planning on ranting about friendship and what it really is and junk but I totally lost my thunder. It seems that a whole lot of stuff has been going on that I knew nothing about with some of my friends. They never told me anything. I guess I’m not a good friend. I was, for a short while, mad that they thought that I wasn’t…I donno, good enough, to be told what the heck was going on. Now…maybe I’m the bad friend. I live in my world of books and information and facts. Not people, not emotions. Maybe I like it that way. Maybe I like things only being right or wrong not open to interpretation.
I’ve never told people anything, really, about myself but I expect them to tell me about them. I guess it doesn’t work that way. Now I’m at a crossroads. A big one. I can either open myself up to people and maybe get hurt even more or totally cut myself off from people even more so then I am. I really don’t know what to do. The idea of not getting hurt and not having to deal with people’s feelings is quite attracting but at the same time I really don’t know. I kinda want to have a real relationship with someone. For the first time have someone who knows everything about me like I do them.
I’m not sure what to do…really

“All I want inside I still am empty

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine

Pretending I'm not

I'm far from lonely

And it's all that I've got”

EDIT - Maybe...there is some hope...

Yes, No, Maybe So

Well...ya. I'm really not a "blogger" but I told a friend of mine that I'd get one up. So, I did.

Today was okay...not bad, not good, just okay. I REALLY need to start on my Physics project but I haven't yet. Bad example. Bad role model. On the topic of role-model, I wish they weren't so expensive. Seriously, I LOVE their stuff (most of it). But whatever, I'm broke so no Role Model.

Now to Pre-calc
Maybe I'll make this look cool later...maybe
-Sasha